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Friday, September 17, 2010

KITES


I woke up from my afternoon nap, still engrossed with the dreams. I thought looking out at the sky would help me to confront with reality. But i was mesmerized after seeing the delightful sky. The Kolkata sky was embedded with 'Kites'. Kites of contrasting colours and varying sizes were flying in trajectories that nobody can predict. I tried taking my eyes off the sky and concentrate on the ground. All roof tops were filled with teenagers, in shorts and tees. It was a battle field , everyone was trying to bring other one down. Kite runners , bit younger, chased the muddy streets in a quest to come back with the prey.





Kites have great relevance with human nature.Each and every phase of kite flying will be extended metaphors.Like Kites , we also want to fly , touch the rainbow. But not all can stay flying. There will be another kite relentlessly approaching , to show you the ground. But still kite flying somehow has a charm and flavour that can wash out these odd thoughts.



Some wonderful works have been done with kites.The Novel 'Kite runner' & Movie 'Kites ' showcased the philosophy and human emotions in an enchanting manner.Kite playing festivals are held all round the globe and acquires good attention.
















Trying to escape from these vicious thoughts , my eyes captured a group of kids. May be they never thought anything abstract or unusual about kite flying . They just enjoyed it to the very extent . There indifference compelled me to stop thinking. But i decided to walk the extra mile and pen down my exhilarating experiences .While writing, i struggled with structures , baffled with words. But i looked out to the kite cemented Sky, and kept writing. Keep Flying!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, July 19, 2010

Memoirs of my 'Gaan'


A village is referred as ‘Gaan‘ in Orissa. Consciously or not but i have started missing my village these days. During my childhood days I developed a strong bond with my village(BALABHADRAPUR) , the fondness is such that I am pouring my thoughts into text today.

My Father and mother were working at a small town (BARIPADA) of North Orissa.
Both of them were teachers at college. Me and my elder brother (here in after referred as Nana) were having our school days. The Best time to visit village was summer vacations,
although my parents made it sure to visit on Festivals, functions and other occasions.
Our village was around 30 Kms from our place of stay. The primary mode to commute
was our Bajaj Chetak Scooter. Nana used to sit in between Bapa and Mama, my only option was near the speedometer.

The journey to village was breathtaking. Out of the crowd, pollution, technology and everything. Rich in tranquility and serenity It was a whole new world. The Best part was that Mama could not push us to books. While crossing lush green paddy fields alongside the road, Bapa used to share his acts of bravery of yesteryears. Sometimes I used to feel drowsy in between the discussions, Bapa used to awaken me by his pinching. I would scream loud.

Now sitting at my office I want to scream, but “Bapa you are not here to pinch, or mama to sympathize”. I think I have lost the roads far behind and its only nostalgia now.




Names of places en route were ‘Baisinga’, ‘Betnoti’, ‘Badasahi’, ‘Bad kerka’, ‘Aarpota’,’Singtia’.(Only Few of them which I remember). The place called ‘Mulia-sahi’
(English meaning: Worker’s locality) was the alarm that we are not far.


Then came house of ‘Dibba’. Bapa used to always halt there and press the horn.
Dibba being a duteous Servant of our family would jump out of his hut.
He used to give a warm welcome smile and say”Babu, so nice that you are here”.
There was no electricity, food or comfort for him. No education for his children, still he would never ask or complaint for anything.


Finally when we arrive at our village, all of us develop different kind of emotions.
Mama being the ‘Bahu’ (daughter in law) start to pull her sari to cover up to fore head.
Nana and I used to stare at teenagers as if we are kids of Akbar and they are ‘praja’ (Public). Bapa would be exchanging smiles as a righteous son of the village.
Any individual who has earned a good living will carry this pride to back home and so did Bapa.



Entering our house was so exciting. Our family residing was my Jejema (Grandma), Kaka (Uncle), Khudi (Aunt) and my Cousin Brothers (Paplu and Tutulu).
Jejema and khudi made sure to serve us our favorite dish ‘chitau pitha’(A cake made from powdered rice mainly in Rural Orissa ). All of us together would sit near the ‘chulha’ with freshly taken cow milk and pure ghee. This part was awesome.


If it was a summer vacation our entire family would be present, making the experience lot more lively and arousing. Waking up early and Sibun dada (one of my cousin) would be ready to lead us to mysterious woods.





He was a like a born detective. We all would start searching for traces, Sibun dada always managed to be the first to find out a skull or a bone. Then he would explain us how ghost arrived last night, and we are the first to land up at the undisturbed site. It was so terrifying, we used to get more energy from his tales and continue our mission ‘Ghost’.



My Grandfather passed away when we were very young, so there was not much of time
we could spend with him. He was a school Headmaster, a much disciplined, hard working, honest in a nut shell he was a man of honor. He was the middle one among three brothers. All three of them had continuous residence separated by fences.
We were also close with them. But somehow we could not bond much with all family members.


Another attraction was the river ‘Budha balanga’. The river has something which would attract you towards it. To reach there you have to go through in between woods, such dense it is even light can’t fathom


Midway comes a big banyan tree. People tell that souls have been buried inside the tree with nails all around to keep the village safe. In spite of all these odds we run to our lovable river. Bapa attempted many a times to teach us swimming but he failed. In his yesteryears he used to bet with his friends and swim end to end when the river was high with floods. Sorry Bapa!!! Could not match your expectations, you have set very high standards. But yes, once Nana and I were on the verge of drowning in the same river.
We ended up gasping; water was coming in from nose, mouth, ears. We felt very helpless. Mama got the news came with a brave young man who saved us. Thanks Mama for giving us life and protecting it.
Bapa and some other relatives would spill mustard oil all over there body and jump to our pond at backyard. It was fishing time; all the kids would be holding the buckets and the elder brave hearts would throw their catch. It was something worth watching. 6-7 People spread all over the pond with nets in their hands and an audience to acknowledge their achievement. Every hunt of a fish was followed by applause. Although later it was used for lunch but it was more of fun and experience. This was the way Bapa and we went for fishing in contrast to foreign countries where fishing was a completely serene experience at countryside.

Although I cannot describe about every hero’s of my Village, there are some who must be mentioned. Babaji ‘kaka’. If mistakenly a kid look into his eyes he was sure to wet his pants. A tall man with wide moustache twisted at the ends, red eyes. Tales fly across villages that when he was young he killed a wild bear with his gun, one shot!!
He was the Shikari shambu of our village. He had a jeep too which was very uncommon for a villager in those days. His house had a mysterious ringing bell, a skull having blood LED bulbs as eyes. Although later on when we grew up we realized he was a good man but surely a unique one.
Cricket was surely different here. Cricket was an obvious choice as it flows in the blood of our country men. All of us, brothers, Bapa and kaka would have matches in between us. It was worth watching when all of us came out of the house. Neatly dressed, doing some stretching and jogging towards the field. Our dearest villagers used to share strange looks as if we have come from England or Mars. One day some of the young guys couldn’t resist and betted a match with us. We laughed and agreed to play, just for a change. Both the teams exchanged ‘don’t you dare mess with me’ looks. Finally game started, they followed no rules. You tell them you are chucking; the next ball would come from Sohaib Akthar. In spite all the odds it was not another Lagaan. We won, although they gave us a good match. That eased the air a bit.
After all this eventful days, returning was not that easy. But always we had to come back.
Those days at least we had a hope that next time is going to be soon.
Unlike now, when we are not able to make it to village.
Time changes, men changes so do circumstances.
Jejema is growing old day by day, she can’t stay there alone. Kaka and Khudi have moved to a more developed area for Kaka’s Business. Jejema stays with them for some time of the year and also with Kuni Nani(My Aunt) for some part.


Our Village has been abandoned. No occupants, but the fences between three houses are still there, standing firm. This is the irony of life.
Bapa & Mama try to pay a visit when time permits. With our new Swift Desire. But I believe they would agree that those Bajaj days were better. (Hamara Bajaj).


I will make sure that my kids will have a look of ‘Balabhadrapur’.
Although I realize what we have got and things they will miss out, still I will take them. Once with their Grandfather and Grandmother, they will walk across Dibba’s house, My River (Yes it’s mine), Our Pond, Babaji kaka’s House, the tube well chakka….

OH this nostalgia feeling is killing me …..I will stop now.
My Baisakhi Experience


Well let me tell u guys Baisakhi is the famous swmming complex @ Salt lake (Kolkata).
After many high spirit attempts i managed to convince myself that its time i must dive into a pool.(No double meanings)One fine morning ..Inspired and motivated greatly by my dear friend Jagu ,,i went to baisakhi.In the reception counter when i asked a form for admission,the three beautiful ladies(as they assume) exchanged a not gonna be easy look.
They made me feel as if i am going to drink away all the water they have in their pool.(No double meanings)When i submitted my photos it was not accepted as they were taken in different shirts.I gave them a what da f*** look.
So it was decided that my first day would be a view day.I went to the pool side , under the scorching sun i managed to find a suitable place for me.When i took a look of the entire pool i found ample of b'full girls , ladies and women swimming, diving and shying around.I thought what on earth made me come here. Admiring all of them ,i thanked jagu (Mann hi mann me).The Sun suddenly seemed to be moon with all of them around.Jagu was also swimming , but cud never manage to draw my attention.This was only because i had hell lotta better options.Finally when i saw jaggu he was in the big pool gasping for air and help. He was in semi drowned situation.The trainer helped him come out of this situation.
I saw small children crying out of fear. The trainer had no signs of sympathy neither there parents.With every dubki i cud see smiles on there parent's face. I compared them with my parents and thanked god that he gaveme such nice parents.
Then came a group of 4 to 5 guys bellies oozing out.It seemed for a moment can this creatures swim .In fact , they never did. As soon as they got ready and excited to dive into the water,the trainer instructed them to go and do jogging (Stamina Training).Now i understood why the ladies at reception counter were smiling.Just at that moment i realized that next few days are going to be a messy job.Next day at 6' o clock i went to the changing room and took out everything i had.
Only thing u can hav their is a spcl underwear of jersy material.250/- was its price but its size told as if it was of 10/-.i was feeling shy coz i always liked adidas ,pepe,john players, levis to name a few....But now i was all alone no brands,only a underwear.I visualized the old movies where in Danny or Amresh puri untie the belt of their velvet gown jump into the pool.Swimm across the pool with b'full girls around. As soon as they come out a white towel wud be there to dry their hairs.They lit a choco cigar and start talking wid michael and joseph.I also wished to have similar experience.But here it was,, not a film this was reality.I finally went to the pool 20 chaps of age group 8-12 and me.All their parents started gaping at me, mouths and eyes wide open.I always wanted to see this expression in a girls face after seeing me. But here things were different ,they thought i am going to devastate there wards swimming training,it was true.
We stood all in a line ,nobody was of above my waists height.While swimming we pushed each other, under water i pulled there legs to compete.One guy came and told ..."Oh uncle thoda side ho jao,,ab mera turn he ...."I had mixed feelings as to how shud i react,,i myself brought this agony to me.Then i decided i am not going to be like hrithik in koi mil gaya.I pushed that chap hard in his chest ,he fell almost 3 mts away in the water.This gave me a munna bhaii feeling. As i was much senior to them i needed respect by hook or by crook.Then on nobody came near me i found my space to swim and njoy.I came out as the bell rang , quite relaxed . Said bye to my new young freinds.Heard some body saying "kal is mote ko dekh lenge"I gav a light smile and left . This was all about my Baisakhi expereince.
CET REVISITED !!!!!!!!!!!




I walked with my best friends across the campus......... towards my class... my final year engineering class. The hour hand at the watch said ... it was ten minutes past 5.... and there was not even a single trace of any life in the college........ except for we three.... me and my best pals ...........Another ten steps.. and there was our class with the doors shut... !!! we were on the first floor... and the sun setting down in the valley with its orange rays was creating a magical scene. Had a wish that the time stops at that very moment... but it never happens... the seconds hand ticked heavily..... and we opened the doors of the class for one last time...................Wished i cud ask my teacher..."may i come in.... " and wanted to hear him shout.... "You late again... no attendance..."someone from the class... "No teacher ... 5 min early...." but there was no one there... just empty desks.. and we three.... looking at the walls.... and the desks.. all empty... with quotes we wrote ... and the raised platform .. where the torture classes were held... and the last benches.. where we had fun.... laughed .... kicked out.... hiding from the teachers... pleading for attendence............ million memories rolled like a movie into our minds... and there was complete silence for a moment.. and we smiled ... laughed!!!!!Walked like heros from the medivial times.... jumped over the benches... had a look at the bench .. where the so called babes of our class used to sit.... hehehe... babes in engineering.... a dream in itself... (no offenses to any babes)... ..
drifted to our place... ... sat there..... side seats...dint feel like the last day .... dont remember how we met .... how we came to such a stage... feels like i know my friends from ages... feel like as if i was born in this college..... feel like i was always here...The entire class was still there alive.... the last benchers sleeping.......... the gals chatting amongst themselves........... Mr. padhi in his own world.(?)..... Sarthak sitting besides me .... cribbing about something ..... Upendra sitting on first bench taking down notes.and smiling at the babes.... Bijay trying talking to the gals... and we laughing about something of the other..... me occasionally scribbling something on my notepad............ making some sketches.. or bullshit poetry(shayri) ...........Ahh.. Pecha asking me to look outside... for some babes from I.T ... standing there....... and i without even a word...looked outside.. it was an unsaid communication.... Rakesh pinged me... and i, with the same enthu... looked outside... but today there wasnt anybody there................ just the deserted corridor.......... and i cud see the Computer department at the end... no one there..................looked back..... but there was debu bose .. in his dream world.... not scribbling anything in his notebook... not laughing this time.... not sayin anything this time........... just sitting there.. and there was sugyan... and there was me ......"roll number 119.......... ""roll number 138............ Sandeep.... u sleeping again........ ""Ok fine............. roll number 240""....................... hey .. present ma'm............ ""you sleep dear...!!! no attendence for you.................""roll number 258......... " ....me again...:))No attendence.... the class has ended... and my friends... chatting and laughing .... going for a chai... aur a sutta..... aur to that desi canteen(which seems as a five star dream now)..and we sat there ..... sat there all alone ......... closed our eyes, for the entire world outside the walls of the campus was calling us..............Wanted to attend one last lecture........ but this time there was no one to take that last lecture..............and there was that door... open... and we wished all the time .. to run away ..... to bunk.. but this time it wasnt..... one last time.... one last time......